Let Me Live (The Prayer)

Let Me Live (The Prayer)

I’m ready to let you have it

and this may be all I have left to give

these very words to you

this is my last plea to let me live

So I’m gonna ask you:

How are you going to reach down inside me

to plant your seeds of hope

just to water me down with doubt

and no means or methods to cope

How are you going to build my heart

out of strength, humility and ration

just to make it pump through my veins

vulnerability, fear and passion

How are going to make me dig deeper

Internalize

Criticize

Rationalize

Realize

and apologize

When you knew damn well

those were the very efforts

that would only lead to my demise

How are you going to paint this picture of me

inside your extravagant expectation

just to leave me stranded

on a blank canvas

completely void of journey or destination

How are you going to make me question this life

but then offer no relief

how are you going to make me get down on my knees for you

when you knew I’d only end up standing in disbelief

How are you going fill my head

constantly

constantly

making me think there’s something different

something more

If this is it

if this is really all you have in store

I’d be okay with this reality

if you’d let me be okay with being done

and yet you keep my heart chasing

burning

believing

that something “big” has just begun

And I want to believe

I want to believe that you know what’s best

and that all these tears, fears and frustrations

really are just your test

Well I’ll be the first to tell you

I’ve failed this part

so it’s time for me to move on now

and reconnect with my heart

You know what I’m lookin for

You know what I have to give

so I’m asking for your help now

God, I need your help to let me live…